GIVEN CHANCE

               If at the end of life I am given chance to re-live again, one more time, experiences I’ve loved: I pray to hear my oldest son on the piano.

               I listened to him today.  He played a song called “Cathedral Bells” and, closing my eyes, I could hear again the organ-sound of the church where I grew up and is no more. 

               I pray to listen to him then, one more time again—to feel it in soul, not just hear in ears; to close my eyes somewhere between life and death, awake and dream, in love of his God-given gift refined in effort and practice.

               I pray to listen to sports stories from my youngest son told through his perspective.

               I pray to see my daughter’s smile, to tell her how beautiful she is and proud I am of her. 

               I pray to have my wife at side; to hold her hand, to thank her for the beautiful life we’ve shared—and for always being there.

               To each, I pray one last time for the chance to say how much I love them—to leave no doubt or wonder for after I am gone. 

               Still, I hope this day is far away; but why should I wait?  Death is not a known.  We do not know our day.  We do not know our hour—only that it finds all of us in time. 

               Why should I wait—wait for future day neither certain nor guaranteed, for chance to say and live what may not come when given chance today?

               Why should I wait?

               I don’t. 

               I go, making good of the prayers I pray.